One of the Things that Makes Me Doubt
The evening following the opening of Hiller/Martin: Provisional Realities, Daria Martin will present a one-time screening of her 16mm film One of the Things that Makes Me Doubt, (2010-11).
The film will last for 32 minutes and will be followed by a conversation with Daria Martin, Bay Area poet Genine Lentine, and the exhibition’s curator, Heidi Rabben.
One of primary questions raised by the exhibition asks how memory can destabilize our perception of the present and our understanding of the realities that inform it. One of the Things that Makes Me Doubt reconsiders the past by illuminating a web of images suspended between Martin's own body of film work and her late grandmother's diaries -- a 30-plus-year record of her dreams and corresponding Jungian analysis of them.
The film matches outtakes from the previous 10 years of Martin’s oeuvre, with select diary entries read out by various performers featured in these films, complicating the confessional style of the video diary.
Begun as an outward journey of parallel discovery of her grandmothers' dream-memories and of Martin's own cinematic histories, the film slowly acquires a dream-like circularity in which archive and imagination blur and the initial synchronicity between films and diaries is disrupted by gaps, divergences, and repetitions.
One of the Things that Makes Me Doubt is a fantastical and spiraling reflection on the performativity of dreaming and on cinema as an impossible act of witnessing.